being alone? or being with people? i've been pretty good for the last couple of months. i've been working and making friends. i finally had the courage to ask a girl out for this weekend, and i'm so scared that i'll fuck this up and never be able to show my face. what do you say to someone on a date? i'm okay at flirting when i'm hanging out with friends because other people can get me going. but, fuck. if this goes baddly, i might just fall back into a spiral of selfdoubt. . . . back into the hole for me. should i just cancel? make some shit up? fuck. so what would be worse?