I originally searched for a forum where people could just discuss suicide, not necessarily a help forum like this but this is all I could find. So if you want to help me spare the motivation and pep talk, it doesn't do anything. I have had CHRONIC (not random or acute) depression since I was a fucking little kid. Okay, it's nonstop..so before you try to give me any encouragement, ask yourself why you think YOU can help me. All I want to know is if anyone here has the knowledge if an overdose on morphine would be pleasant (like the high from lower doses) or would it be miserable like all other ways of dying? I want it to look like an accident. So obviously a gun is out of the question. I think I've had enough pain and misery that it's not too much to ask for a pleasant death. I can't seem to find the information I'm looking for on the net. I have no reason to believe it would be unpleasant, but you never know, and I want a for sure deal. I'd rather not have to ever make another trip to the emergency room and have to stay the night in the hospital followed by meaningless counseling. Also, my birthday is in 14 days. I think it would be really convenient to do it on my birthday because for one everyone who knows me knows that I was addicted to opiates for several years, so it's perfectly logical to assume that I would want to celebrate my birthday by doing some morphine, this would make it look more accidental. They will think that I forgot to factor in how my tolerance had gone down after being clean for so long, it happens to "ex" junkies all the time right?