Who am I? Just had a need to write I have a heavy heart today one filled with no joy only with sadness, one thing that sometimes is so frustrating is I don’t know why, it sounds odd I know all the things that have happened and the reasons for it being a struggle, but I cant say this happened today and that’s why I feel this way right now. I’m tired but I can’t sleep I’m deep in thought but can not find any answers, I’m desperate but can not fight, I’m embarrassed but can not hide, I’m frightened but have no protector, I hold secrets but I can not share, I have hate but can not forgive, I feel a failure but can not find confidence, I’m reaching the middle of my life and I can not find youth, I’m not the person I once was, but I can not find myself, I want peace, but I can not go, I want to find god, but I don’t know where to look, I’m nothing but I can not find something, I’m empty but I can not find fulfillment, I’m heavy hearted, but I can not grieve, I’m alone but I can not relate to those around me. I have so much love inside but I can not share it I hate depression but I can not beat it Who am I? Where did I go? When did I disappear?