I feel maorly upset right now, sitting here crying so much. I feel so damn empty. Like i have no life in me, im just ....... empty. I feel so tempted to do something RIGHT NOW and i really don't know whats stopping me, i really don't. Maybe sitting here writing this is keeping me from it, what happens when im finished? what am i gonna do? Im gonna look for my things. The things that make the pain go away for awhile. Theres no one i can properly open up to. Not a single person i can truely say how i feel. What i think. What i imagine. Its too much, people threatning to kill themselfs, keeping how they feel inside, i swear to god if someone close to me on here does it then thats the end of me aswell, that aint a threat, thats a PROMISE. I wanna cut. I wanna burn. I wanna OD. Actually think i might pop up the shop buy some 'things'. Whats to lose. Might aswell have a fucked up body with a fucked up head. Yeah great! who caes anyway. I could drop dead right now and no one would give a shit. I don't even think anyone on here would give a shit. Even got a date in mind if things are bad. Maybe its a good thing if they do get bad around that time. Anyone else fancy having a ago at me? hurting me around that time? you maybe the lucky onn to push me so far that i do it on that date. So i best get to it. I'm off.