Everyone has their insecurities, including me.
But it's these insecurities that we have to try and overcome, instead of letting them get the better of us. We know deep down there are people who care about you, and yet our conscious is telling us, and convincing us, that it's all lies. Its what happens to use when we're in this state of mind, but like said we need to try and get over these problems and revel in the fact that we do have people who love us and care for us, and who will never let us go. You have someone very close to you who you mean the world to. You know that, and I know that. And I have someone close to me too, whom I'd be truly lost without. Infact, if it wasn't for her, I doubt I'd even be here.
I'm not saying, for one second, that the only reason I'm still alive is just because she loves me; yeah, her love does mean a lot to me, and I love her so much. Its just knowing that someone cares about me, and that me dying would hurt them, and I couldn't handle that. I care for her far too much to even think about attempting [again], because I know it would crush her if I were to go. I'd feel exactly the same if anything happened to her. I won't try anything though, because its her love that keeps me alive. I used to think that nobody cared for me either, then I met her and everything changed. My entire outlook on life took a change in direction, and I figured that killing myself isn't the best idea. The same goes for you, hun. You have someone who loves you so very much, and you love him too. Love is a connection that, if true, can never be broken. You too seem so strong, and that won't ever change. He cares for you. I care for you. We all care for you. Don't let the insecurities win, Resistance, you can overpower them, you know you can.