i don't know where else to turn. all my fiance did was scream at me yesterday. it was suppose to be an exciting day because we put a deposit down on our reception hall. it seems no matter what i do, i piss him off. i kept my distance, but later in the night he tried to joke around and i guess in his own way, "apologize." but i just kept ignoring him, went to get a shower, and when i came back out he was really mad again. i let him sleep..but in the morning, he was worse. i followed him into the bathroom, trying to get him to talk to me, but he slammed me against the wall by my neck and said, "i have to fucking go to work. im not doing this." yesterday morning i was late for work because i really want to go through with killing myself. i had my plan and i sat in my room and debated it. and today i feel as if nothing is holding me back. he is just the icing on the cake. i feel as if he was my only grip on life and i can't even talk to him! he is mad the majority of the time. and even if i caused it or not...he takes it out on me. i have been in such a dark place for the past few months. i have absolutely no one to talk to about this. everyday its harder for me to get out of bed, deal with him, deal with my parents, deal with work..and it seems like there is no one "rooting me along." i go to work and cry and struggle to get myself to do anything. i don't see any reason why i should be here anymore.