Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Esmeralda, Nov 22, 2007.
Who do you cling to when life seems hopeless?
The thought that I can make it all go away if I need too.
Whoever I currently feel closest to.
I cling to a crazy belief that one day things will become better lol.
I was actually thinking of starting the same thread.
i try to cling to my past self in the hope i can become him again
Lem = :cat:
Fantasise of a life with my favourite actor
When push comes to shove...
Little sis :baby:
And whatever other poor soul is in the way of my downfall.
The dog, sounds stupid, but somehow he needs me and keeps me going and I couldn't stand the thought of him being re-homed with someone else as I think he would be so unhappy.
When I told the PDOC this he as good as laughed.... obviously not a pet owner.
Then I have thought about dying and taking him with me make it easier on both of us.
Yea PETS rule.
I love my cat.. she is an old beat up thing that I found in a shelter.
Starved, frozen, beaten.
so scared she would only come out from under the bed to eat and shit.
Now she is my lovebug and PURRRS when ever I pick her up. It only took 10 years.
She still bears the scars of her abuse, but she trusts me.
When I reach for her to pet and strock her, she closes her eyes and streches her neck out for my hand. which is ALWAYS GENTAL AND KIND.
I would like to think that GOD will do that for us when we come to him ALL BEATUP AND USED.
I did that too... I don't think it's crazy, because in my case it was actually right.
Maybe I'm just a little emotional right now but, what a sweet story.
My son is my light when everything seems dark and with out purpose. There's also my cat and two aquatic dwarf frogs. Who would take care of them if I wasn't here?
The hope that things will get better.
Must be that for me too... Cuz I can't think of anything else.
I cling to him. Maybe a little too much.
If I'm with him, everything else disappears.
He's my everything, yet he doesn't seem to want to be, doesn't seem able to be.
Beautiful. And I feel the same way about God.
I seem to have lost all contact with God but still feel religious just never make an effort. I keep saying I will start attending Church again...