there are three of me who are active. dan, hijacker and someone who i will presently call only S. then there is me. me is a surrogate for each of them. me is a genderless, personalitiless voice machine who only puts into words the the thoughts of the above 3 mentioned.
it just occurred to us that we each sort of blame the other two for the physical and psychological damage. then again S takes responsibility as a form of prison break. hijacker suggests that hijacker has not been doing the most hurtful stuff but simply being a facilitator in S’s efforts for freedom and suggesting that dan is the true hijacker. dan just thought of this: that hijacker and S are lying. that dan knows what hijacker is up to and it is simply to destroy dan and with S, hijacker will make the destruction complete. dan has actually been kind of silent lately as has hijacker and S has been stepping up and trying to force dan into an admission. now dan want’s to turn the tables again.
now there’s me! you might think i’m pretty proficient at thought processes having just written the above paragraph. what i do is take the thoughts of each and kind of blend them into these sentences. but i will say the evidence is that the body has been abused and the mind has been too. what if all three of these people are the same - just different parts. it still seems to make S the true leader. but even this is questionable. dan suggests that it is he who has been in prison and hijacker says oh no, its been S.
in a disputful kind of way the three agree that an independent 4th person - an observer might give an impression that may prompt more productive thinking. because the three as three don’t know what a combination would look like. it is still a 1 against 2 situation with S and hijacker voting for S and dan voting for dan. hijacker just wants to assure that S prevails. dan does not understand this.
i (me) has been relaying a much lesser emphatic version of this to our therapist for a while but a therapist is only one person and leaves the negotiation up to you know who... the three. so all that is being requested here, now, is some observations that can be considered in this negotiation, debate, war, and peace talk. the body is very involved and needs resolution soon - it hurts. thanks.
it just occurred to us that we each sort of blame the other two for the physical and psychological damage. then again S takes responsibility as a form of prison break. hijacker suggests that hijacker has not been doing the most hurtful stuff but simply being a facilitator in S’s efforts for freedom and suggesting that dan is the true hijacker. dan just thought of this: that hijacker and S are lying. that dan knows what hijacker is up to and it is simply to destroy dan and with S, hijacker will make the destruction complete. dan has actually been kind of silent lately as has hijacker and S has been stepping up and trying to force dan into an admission. now dan want’s to turn the tables again.
now there’s me! you might think i’m pretty proficient at thought processes having just written the above paragraph. what i do is take the thoughts of each and kind of blend them into these sentences. but i will say the evidence is that the body has been abused and the mind has been too. what if all three of these people are the same - just different parts. it still seems to make S the true leader. but even this is questionable. dan suggests that it is he who has been in prison and hijacker says oh no, its been S.
in a disputful kind of way the three agree that an independent 4th person - an observer might give an impression that may prompt more productive thinking. because the three as three don’t know what a combination would look like. it is still a 1 against 2 situation with S and hijacker voting for S and dan voting for dan. hijacker just wants to assure that S prevails. dan does not understand this.
i (me) has been relaying a much lesser emphatic version of this to our therapist for a while but a therapist is only one person and leaves the negotiation up to you know who... the three. so all that is being requested here, now, is some observations that can be considered in this negotiation, debate, war, and peace talk. the body is very involved and needs resolution soon - it hurts. thanks.
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