Thank every person for responding to my other thread, I could kill myself but at the moment I want to give life one more shot, one last chance. Who here agrees they will not even think about suicide until at least the summer. By this I mean if you normally have a bad day and catch yourself thinking about suicide, then focus on using coping factors other then suicide ideation. Because lets get real, suicide ideation is a coping factor, it helps me get through another day knowing I can end it. But you know what I never tried? I never tried replacing that coping factor (suicide ideation) with something that will actually help me in the long-run rather then hurt myself in the long-run. So I am recruiting members, who would normally have, or always have suicide as a instinctual reaction to too much pain, and to think and change that instinctual reaction and replace it with something else. I realize you may not think this will work. But you must give it a chance, like drugs, it takes time. I myself am giving this half a year, six months, until the middle of July. By that time if this method doesn't work, then we can try techniques of coping with pain. I believe by drawing out a plan, setting rules to that plan, and establishing a definite amount of time it is to be used for, and actually following the plan (homework) is the best way to gauge its effectiveness. Does this sound stupid? It is, if you only try it once, but the idea is that you try it everyday, because the effects that it has on you emotionally, physically and spiritually build upon eachother. If you have considered suicide? What have you got to lose? I already started following this "program" and I am feeling more secure, and little less pesemistic and mabye, just mabye a little happier. List things you will do / think when suicidal thoughts come to you (not necessarily in order of importance): 1) Remind self of this plan. 2) If in bad state of mind preoccupy self. A. TV - or go to movies B. Exercise - walk, run, bike, weights C. Sleep (most important) D Take prescription (such as anxiety pills to ease tension) E Call someone 3) When in a "lesser"-suicidal state of mind - try to solve problem thinking about realistic solutions. So the idea is to first treat the unhappiness, then deal with the problem when you feel a little better. And when solving the problem, to think about it as an outside observer. Who will join me!?