Its kind of like a broken circuit I try to talk to everyone, make sure they are okay. I take care of my friends at school and on here. I care for my family and watch over them as much as I can. My life is devoted to helping others. Then there are moments when I feel down, or want to do bad things. No one honestly just sits down and talk with me. They just say 'Get help" or "I'm sorry" Then there are people who provoke it. I told my friend I self harmed and he offered to buy me an object I could use...like it was OKAY that I was doing this I'm not doing this to get attention, because to be honest no one even reads my threads. But I know very few people who help, rather than just saying the common phrases so they don't look bad. I may be wrong Idk, but its starting to hurt really bad. I feel outcasted, shunned down. By just about everyone.