Ultimately i think God knows my sufferings and have mercy on me. I hate these mood swings and im getting sick and tired deling with it for more than half of my life. I dont care if People think im selfish but they really don't know the insanity i go through everyday. All i wish is to ne dead cuz obviousl . I'm not tough enough to make it through. PPeople will judge me because they don'ttthink the way i am. I can't wait for another opportunity to try to end my life. Life goes on and the world will still keep spinning with or without me. My birthdayis on fFriday and i wish i can do something soon. I just dont have a plan but only willful thinking. One day, only one day is when my wish will come through. Until then, i have a stigma.