'cause I'm ready..... I just want to fight and punch and for once give as good as I've been given physically and emotionally. I'll take on my childhood abuser, I'll take on my alcoholic family, I'll take on my abusive ex, I'll take on whoever wants to take me on - lots of other things in between what i've mentioned - no problem, I'm ready. Who gives a shit? seriously? Is it time just to say adios world? I don't know. I THINK it is, but the timing is wrong. Two options lately have come to mind but neither will be 100% successful so thats the last thing I want to do...... Who the hell knows me anyhow? haven't I always worn a mask? Who knows the pain? Comments that were "innocently" made - are you kidding me? Its always the same thing. And now - the inability to cope - that familiar feeling of failure - how fantastic is that. such a self esteem builder. am tired of this crap, of the fake strength and the rest. just tired, so tired.