Funny because if you pretend to be crazy just to get on it you will eventually become crazy because of how awful your life becomes. Sitting around with nothing to do all day. Watching all the busy bodys doing important things, socializing, feeling happy bright and intelligent thriving at life while you're sitting in a studio apartment falling to pieces with 20 illegal wetback neighbors crammed into a tiny apartment who don't give a fuck about being loud and slamming things around during all hours and would probably kill you if given the chance. Receiving money that the govt has deemed to goto people who have incontinence problems and the cognitive abilities of a 3 year old Fucking great I tell you. How the hell could I possibly ever be normal again. So pathetic and fucked up. People like me are considered completely trash to all. If I were dying in the middle of the road you wouldn't give a fuck because I'm obviously poor and struggle with humility and the most adverse conditions possible in this country on a daily basis. I really should go on a psychotic rampage as a release. What's it matter anymore. I never did anything to deserve this life. I was always quiet and shy, I never did anything that would be considered harmful to others except that I no longer wanted to live anymore. Now I live like and I'm treated like criminal miscreants who have just been released from prison (yeah, they're placed in state run medical programs with people who suffer mental illness.) The irony is that they're often given college scholarships and money/programs to get back in life while the shy suicidal ones like me are pretty much just encouraged just to fucking kill themselves. Maybe I should attempt some crimes. What's the worst that could happen to me other than getting free stuff (I've done MANY illegal things in my life and have never been caught) or getting a free college scholarship because I'm an ex convict. I really don't care if I die anymore but I really would like to enjoy myself before I go!