Tonight I just wish I didn't exist. I got my bachelor's degree like a good little girl, now no one will even hire me and I'm working at f-ing Walmart, living with my abusive mother, hours away from all my friends and support network... I keep drinking more and more at night just to be able to sleep, and I just feel like I have no future at all. And after I think that, I think that maybe I'm not meant to be alive since no sort of future is falling into place for me... Why can't I just get some happiness for once in my life? Why am I being punished by God - what did I do wrong?