not sure why i am bothering to post
talking doesn't help
can't talk about how bad i really feel
especially not to those close to me
every day i wake up wishing i could just close my eyes and die
every day the pain is too much to bear
the "temporary problem" has been going on for more than 30 years now... people have promised me that it gets better, but i just go on suffering... day after day... year after year...
i'm not afraid to die, i'm afraid of NOT dying
knowing the consequences of trying and failing is the only thing that keeps me here
i don't know how a person can survive this pain
the anxiety is debilitating
every day is a struggle
a battle
i feel like i am wearing out
i am so tired
i just want to sleep, but the nightmares...
ha! every waking moment is a nightmare
those in my sleep pale in comparison
oh well
thanks for listening..... if anyone is
talking doesn't help
can't talk about how bad i really feel
especially not to those close to me
every day i wake up wishing i could just close my eyes and die
every day the pain is too much to bear
the "temporary problem" has been going on for more than 30 years now... people have promised me that it gets better, but i just go on suffering... day after day... year after year...
i'm not afraid to die, i'm afraid of NOT dying
knowing the consequences of trying and failing is the only thing that keeps me here
i don't know how a person can survive this pain
the anxiety is debilitating
every day is a struggle
a battle
i feel like i am wearing out
i am so tired
i just want to sleep, but the nightmares...
ha! every waking moment is a nightmare
those in my sleep pale in comparison
oh well
thanks for listening..... if anyone is