And I have searched for an answer, prayed for one and worked to find an answer and yet I still come up empty. There is no purpose to my life. Maybe my soul is caught in the wrong dimension and I need to set it free so it can go on and find a purpose in another life, another existence. I am tired of fighting. I am tired of the disappointment. I am tired of the sadness. I am tired of deceiving myself. I just need the courage for one final act of utter cowardice so I can find relief from the emptiness and correct the mistake that is me.