I always feel empty. I know I'm not a sociopath or anything, because I strongly empathize/sympathize with my friends, family, and most T.V characters (silly, I know. But I'm the person where if I know something embarrassing is about to happen to the main character in a show, I cringe and want to look away and it makes me uncomfortable). My life hasn't been the easiest. I was molested as a child, my father is awful, my mother means well but just doesn't understand, and i'm not close to any of my other family members even though I have a lot of them. I always feel alone and empty. I should be grateful that I have a lot of friends and people who are there that want to be around me, but I feel alone in an empty room. I'm smart but I'm not brilliant. I never finish anything and can never keep commitments. I'm not good at anything except for writing, and I haven't written anything in such a long time that when I tried picking it back up I ended up deleting everything. I'm useless. My parents are divorced and both re-married with their own new families. I'm utterly alone. I think a lot about dying, or if anyone would care at all if I just disappeared from the earth. I don't feel like I'm contributing to this world at all. In school I get B's and C's, I'm kind of a slut, and all me and my crew of friends do is get ridiculously drunk/high. I don't deserve life. I'm not even unhappy enough to seriously be unhappy. Is this what they call apathy? Sorry this is so long.