No seriously, this is one of those posts that I feel I need to make to help me vent, but not sure if I expect anything from posting it. The thing is, that I wake up every morning very depressed and sometimes, like today, it's almost a feeling of anxiety. (Queasy stomach and head buzzing with thoughts that I can't make sense of). I feel like I'm waiting on something, but not sure what I'm waiting on. I'm very demotivated such that I can't get any work done (I work for myself from home), and I'm sitting here hoping someone will call me to chat. Whenever a friend calls me (especially my supportive friend who knows a lot of my depression details), I feel much much better for a bit, as if someone cares, but that feeling dissipates later that day or the next day. I feel abandoned, as if no one cares about me. And that's how I feel now. I really can't stand it, arrggghhh!!!!!! So why am I posting this again?