The only reason I have the courage to ask this is because I'm currently drunk. I want to know, why am I so annoying? Why do I feel the need to type 10 paragraph posts that nobody is ever going to read? It's bad enough that I already hate myself. Why do I socially alienate myself by being so obnoxious? Do I subconsciously want everybody to hate me? Or am I just so psychologically messed up that I can't help but rant? I want friends. I've always wanted to fit in. Yet everything I do just drives people away. I can't blame them. Who would want to talk to someone like me? I sure as hell don't. That's why I'm here, because I'm trying to find someone else to talk to so that I don't have to listen to myself bitch and complain all the time. Okay, I'm going to end this post now before I end up sounding even more pathetic than I already do.