Around every bend I am reminded of how inadequate I am. How ugly, how weak, how sexually unappealing, how my talents always fall short, how generally lacking I am. At great risk of sounding cliche, why can't I be one of the smart and beautiful people? Sure I touch people just by being around...but is my life really that profound? Sometiems what would have happned if I had succeeded in killing myslef in 8th grade. Would people remember me? Would things have been better for people that I met later on? What about when I tried all those time in senior year? Sure, many friends said "I would have been destroyed. Don't you dare do it." But was it true? They may have cried, or just been unpleasantly surprised...but somehow I doubt it would destroy them. I think they would continue going on, having the things I wanted, enjoying life, enjoying eachother...and sooner or later I would be just a memory if that. Hmm that zombie emoticon reminds me. I think it would be nice if the zombie apolcolypse happened. It would really simplify things. Personal interaction would be limited to "you help me stay alive, I'll help you." Your value would be determined by how well you can survive, and I have put a great deal of thought into my "zombie plan" XD I consider myself an expert when it comes to zombies :zombie::zombie: Well...there's that.