Hate everyone. it isnt their fault. i hate everyone for having siblings, for being with their siblings, for being with their family, for being older. i'm angry, so angry at my only friend for being with her sister. How awful is that? can't deny it though, heart is thumping with the hatred, i'm shaking and if she were here i'm not sure what i'd do. Nothing is fucking fair. want to rip myself to pieces and jump under a train but nothing will bring her back. Nothing,. It's a good job i'm all alone. think i'd be a risk to other people.