I sometimes feel intensely suicidal following the death of my beloved wife last May and things become more desperate every day without her. It is only what's left of my shaky religious faith which is keeping me alive in the hope that we will be together again one day. What disturbs me is the attitude of those who criticise the suicidal. If all goes wrong I have written letters to our sons explaining very carefully why what happened did happen and I am sure that they would understand. They are well aware of the intense love which my wife and I shared but I explained that carefully too. Given that, why would they blame themselves if I did choose to call it a day? There is nothing that they could do, short of being with me 24 hrs/day. Unless there is a major problem with a relationship where guilt comes into the equation I don't think the family/ relatives/ friends should take any blame. My wife and I were very happy with just ourselves and had very few friends so only close family know how we lived.