Because a while ago (I can't even remember exactly when... my sense of time is odd... heh... but I suppose my sign up date will tell) I felt lower than I'd ever felt. At first, I, too, was looking for methods. But then, my dog looked at me and I thought "What the heck am I doing?" and instead started looking for support. Since I don't have a phone, the hotlines were useless so I looked up "suicide support forum" and stumbled here. I stay here because in a way, it's comforting knowing that I have a safe place to go when I feel that low.