Seriously, tell me. This being a suicide forum I'm sure the majority of the people who visit are dealing with suicide in some way or another, so tell me about it. I'm curious.
I myself have thought about killing myself for a while now, but I don't think I'll ever be able to bring myself to it. But I still want to die. So badly its ridiculous. There are a lot of reasons. I find myself wishing for a random car accident. Maybe when I'm walking down the street fate will be kind enough to redirect a car towards me or something. Something quick would be nice.
But back to what I'm getting at with this. I've been thinking more and more about myself and why I hate everything so very much. Questions like what is disatisfying me with my life, and what could satisfy me? It took a while for me to finally realize that its mainly because I'm just alone. Soo very alone. I go to school, I have a few friends I could go out with, but I'm always so far away. I'm always off somewhere else. I don't understand how everyone can just live. There are a few (a LOT) of personal reasons too, of course, that add and amplify the lonliness, but a lot of it just seems to be that i'm just really fucking lonely.
But I decided to post to ask, why do you hate life so much you feel like you'd rather leave than stay? I'm wondering what it is (other than feeling like a god damned island all the time) that fucks with people so badly as to drive them to suicide. What do you think the reason for most of your suicidal feelings are?
Btw, not sure if this is the right area of the forum for this, so mods, feel free to move it where it needs to be.
I myself have thought about killing myself for a while now, but I don't think I'll ever be able to bring myself to it. But I still want to die. So badly its ridiculous. There are a lot of reasons. I find myself wishing for a random car accident. Maybe when I'm walking down the street fate will be kind enough to redirect a car towards me or something. Something quick would be nice.
But back to what I'm getting at with this. I've been thinking more and more about myself and why I hate everything so very much. Questions like what is disatisfying me with my life, and what could satisfy me? It took a while for me to finally realize that its mainly because I'm just alone. Soo very alone. I go to school, I have a few friends I could go out with, but I'm always so far away. I'm always off somewhere else. I don't understand how everyone can just live. There are a few (a LOT) of personal reasons too, of course, that add and amplify the lonliness, but a lot of it just seems to be that i'm just really fucking lonely.
But I decided to post to ask, why do you hate life so much you feel like you'd rather leave than stay? I'm wondering what it is (other than feeling like a god damned island all the time) that fucks with people so badly as to drive them to suicide. What do you think the reason for most of your suicidal feelings are?
Btw, not sure if this is the right area of the forum for this, so mods, feel free to move it where it needs to be.
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