I was just discharged from hospital psychiatric ward yesterday. I am still having suicidal thoughts and I have seen the psychiatrist as an outpatient today. Guess what she does? Ask me so many questions about my childhood repeatedly and wanted specific dates and times. I am also seeing the psychologist in the same hospital previously and she has already asked all these questions and I have answered them. The doctor and the psychologist can share notes since they are in the same hospital, so why need ask the same questions again and again??? I am fucking pissed off because they are wasting time. Here I am hurting so badly inside emotionally and didn't want to rake up about my childhood past and there the doctor keep digging at my open wound. I am deeply hurt. She has increased my medication dosage again today because the previous dose didn't stop me from having all the suicidal thoughts and it actually made it more intense. my next appointment with the doctor is next week. I am deeply in emotional pain and she got no email address for me to write to her. I don't know what to do except praying for my thoughts not to get so intense or else I might lose control and act out on them. I am very very suicidal and to me I see no hope in everything now - at this moment, at this second. I just want to die and rest in peace.