Why is it that if you have been abused as a child, you go on to be abused as adults and hurt? I dont go round with a tatoo on my forhead saying 'hurt me, use me' but people do. Even people I am close to who HATE and ABHOR what others have done to me only end up hurting me too, it makes no sense to me. I mean as a kid wasn't just one abuser NO several, then every r-ship been in ended nasty or I was simply used and one was very abusive sexually, verbally, emotionally, spiritually and physically.............. surely we dont attract these types? I dont get it. My best male friend who I love so dearly (even more than a friend) has been leading me on and now realise it I am shocked, angry and let down cos he was the one who said dont mix with wrong types, stick to those who care, blah blah blah, yet he just seems to be using me now. I have reverted back deeply into my little girl and she is so vulnerable again now and doesn't want to come out of hiding, its not safe.