Sometimes I feel like no one out there really likes me. Jesus it's a lonely feeling. Makes life boring and stupid and not worth living. I keep telling myself there there's someone out there but hell after 30 years and still no one. I should have just died years ago. It would have made this long, boring, lonely, stupid life a lot shorter. I've tried everything from changing who I am, to being myself, to being out going in stuff, and nothing changes so whatever. I give up now. It's stupid to think that my life is ever going to change. I'm me I'm stuck in this hell of a world and ain't leaving sadly forever I bet. Unless I can figure out how to find a sure fire way to leave. I should be happy that I have 2 friends out there, but damn is it really all that bad that I'd like to have a friend that lived in the same damn state as me? Someone who I can actually go out and do stuff with? I just would like to have more to life then lying around waiting to get old and die.