i've been cutting for a couple years now and I've always felt that it's a way to realease emotional pain...like,i'll get very upset if I don't bleed. It used to just be that i would cut whenever i got mad or depressed but know I do it whenever i'm bored or tired and whenever I actaully am really mad or depressed i just can't seem to do it. I want to...it's just my way of dealing with things. but i can't, it's like i'll start and then i just don't want to anymore. And i'm confused because this didn't really start until after I attempted suicide. Is this an after-affect?