I have no clue what is happening to me at the moment, I'm either extremely hyper or extremely depressed ~ I can't find a happy medium, I've burnt myself out. I've made myself ill ~ How can I go on living like this, I can't I'm physically and mentally exhausted, I can't make normal day to day decisions, I don't seem able to make any decisions. I took an overdose the other day, for some messed I'm reason I woke up, felt like crap but I woke up. I tried to crash my car, but that didn't happen I don't want to hurt others. I just want to be able to rest without fear, memories, feeling alone, isolated, confused. I just want to die, why can't I die.