On new Year's Eve while driving on a busy highway i was hit by a hit-n-run tractor trailer. Yet again i did not die but i am left to deal with the consequences. Terrified to drive, nightmares, pain. Too many times i should have died and haven't and i just can't get it all through my head. i need to die i'm just tired of living through hell all the time and just waiting for the next thing to happen. Nothing good ever does. So why is it that i can't die. Suicide only amounts to an attempt but i will have to try anyway. i just can't take it any more.