I obviously can't live; I've never been alive. I just can't die. My body and mind, just won't let me. I guess I'll just have to keep trying to convince myself it's the right thing to do. Fuck. I hate this. I have no friends, and I'm sad about that, but It's my own fucking fault. I hate everyone, I judge everyone, I have something negative to say about everyone. The person I hate the most is myself. I don't blame people for leaving me. I'd leave me if I could. I hate being alone. I'm not even here to help myself. I just want to die. Why won't I just do it! No one would fucking notice, no one would care. Why am I even writing this? Fuck this, go die a horrible fucking death Sam. It's the least you deserve.