Hey. So tonight I was meant to be meeting my dad after lectures after not seeing him for a couple of months and he came to meet me and he was completely drunk, slurring words and everything. And he was so drunk that I had to say 'I can't come out with you tonight while you're this drunk'. And then he got really upset and kept saying he missed me outside the uni and I felt so bad, but I couldn't go out with him like that. I rang my mum, she told me it wasn't my fault but I feel like it is. And he gave me £50 and he really can't afford to but I took it. He's had a slight drinking problem for years but not this bad before and his dad died in January and he's still grieving. I know how tough it is for him and I don't know how to help him. I think he went to get the bus back to my grandma's where he was staying but there are pubs along the way and I know he will go into them. My mum actually rang my grandma and my grandma hung up on my mum because she doesn't believe he has a problem and he does. I know he needs to be the one to ask for help but I don't know what to do, and I just felt so bad leaving him there but I didn't know what to do. And now I'm drinking and I don't get into the states he does, but I fear that in the future I will do. I know he can't help being an alcoholic, I'm not trying to blame him for that but it's hard coping with it too. I told him I'd see him tomorrow in town when he had sobered up and hopefully I will, I will keep that promise and I will give him the money back. I just hope he's ok.