I just wish I knew the true answer to this question. Is it part of God's plan for me to be single? Does God hate me? Just tell me why??? I'm 37 years old now and I have never once had a girlfriend. Never once have I even kissed a girl or held a girls hand. I'm always so jelous when I see young guys walking down the street holding hands with their girlfriend. Why can't I experience that too? If only just once I could experience that feeling. But I guess it will never happen. My jelousness may one day turn to hatered, or it will probably just make me even more depressed. To all those people on this forum who have (or have had) a girlfriend/boyfriend, you obviously don't know how lucky you are, and I'm sure a lot of you take it for granted. Yet some of you are still prepared to kill yourself...???? I'm too ugly now to find someone and I'm also suffering from a bit of brain damange so I can understand why no one is interested in me. But maybe in my next life things will change. All I want to do is end my life now and come back as a different person. But will God grant me that wish, or will he send me to hell for killing myself?