why cant I get help

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by jimmy carter, Jul 7, 2007.

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  1. jimmy carter

    jimmy carter New Member

    My life just totally sucks. doesnt seem as if anything is getting better. Its casuing me to not sleep and think how how get life over with about 70% of each day. I am under so much stress my heart just hurts like its going to fall out. I have tried to ask for some help thru family and the g/f and that didnt work out at all they just laughed at me. I have sent some emails to other help lines no response. I just dont get why I should be here anymore other than holding up a spot of air for the next person. My life just sucks if i could end and make sure i was dead and not turned out to be a vegtable for life i would. I just dontget why I should stay here and miserable. I lost my mom 2 years ago and still to the day it haunts me. My home life just plain sucks my g/f of 5 years. I guess doesnt really see i need help. She comes home from work and plays a video game till wee hours inthe am. I am 34 she is older .We have 2 dogs and this house feels like i live in a dog pen. I get tired of it day in and day out. Sometimes i wonder why i still get up everyday. other than the fact I am self employed and have a few jobs to finsh for people. I still just dont get it at all. After my mom died my brother basically took all her stuff and either sold it or gave it away. I havent talked to him sinse. I have asked my dad for help and got the go away sign. I have a job to finish up by the end of next week and if it doesnt get any better by then I just have to figure out how to make sure i am not here any more.. well hopefully some one can show me a path to the light or something. I am just sos tressed out like i am having panic attacks and have been puking some blood up. while my heart feels like a harpon went thru it.


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  2. corral

    corral Guest

    hi im sorry about ur mum and that your gf shows u no support. i would never leave my man suffer. maybe she is just not right for you?
     
  3. iracund

    iracund Antiquities Friend

    jimmy -

    have you looked into local avenues of help? local governemtn agencies? do you have insurance? if so, does it cover mental help? if so ... make an appointment with a professional and get there ASAP. if not, try all your local government agencies. thought it's not easy to do on your own, especially when you feel like nobody cares so what difference does it make, if you really push and put yourself out there, your voice will probably be heard.

    good luck ... i hope you get the help you need. please look, and don't be discouraged that the people who are close to you seem to be ignoring it. from experience, sometimes it's just too hard for them to deal with when they are that close to it ... it's unfortunate, but not that uncommon. most importantly, don't give up. the help you need is out there. :hug:

    iracund
     
  4. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    Sorry to hear about your pain. I hope things will get better for you. It's unfortunate that your gf and family are not supportive. Why don't you put your foot down to them and seriously tell them how you truly feel.
     
  5. elkcitian

    elkcitian New Member

    Ok. I know that I am new to this forum, but tell me make a few observations. You were so attached to you mother that it is still ruling your life 2 years later ? Sorry, but as bad as it sounds to say....death is a part of life. No matter how close you and your mother were, if you allow her passing to affect you 2 years later, then its not the other people in your life. Make peace with your mothers passing, mourn, then focus on moving forward in your own life. What exactly is holding you back ?
     
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  6. NotAlwaysTrue

    NotAlwaysTrue New Member

    It's amazing that most of the responses here are doubting the family's and gf's involvement or their inability to give support to the OP. Rather than knock what you all don't know as fact, try directing your responses to helping the OP and not judging his/her family and gf.
     
  7. RainbowChaser

    RainbowChaser Well-Known Member

    jimmy carter - I'm sorry that you're not finding your family and girlfriend to be all that supportive. Unfortuantly this does happen quite abit unless the people around you have been through similar things, and even then it's not a promise that they'll understand. You're definately not alone in this :hug:

    You say you've been having panic attacks and throwing up blood, have you seen a doctor about these? Throwing up blood is never a good sign and should really be looked at by a doctor if possible. Telling them about the depression which you seem to be suffering from (even if it is just related to your mother's passing) may also be useful, as doctors normally know some good places to get help from and information about treatments and the like.

    Hope this helps a little :hug:
     
  8. iracund

    iracund Antiquities Friend

    thanks for stating the obvious. instead of criticizing, why not try to lend a helping hand?
     
  9. elkcitian

    elkcitian New Member

    He is judging his own family and girlfriend, we are not. My interpretation of the responses tells me that he is questioning their support, not ours. You are walking on a very fine line when you accuse members of this website of judging others. NEVER should that happen here, EVER. I would like to hear from "jimmy" to see if he is sincere in wanting some help, or if this was just some venting.
     
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  10. jimmy carter

    jimmy carter New Member

    no I need help BADLY. I just dont get life anymore. I am so stressed out still. I cant keep anything down in my stoach end uup puking it up with some blodd. yeah i qeustion my familys support. basically There were 3 of us as kids i always left out. so i guess I am still left out so if i do suck some dirt I want to buried 5 ft 7/8 of inch not 6 ft under so the trip over my big ass. Trsut me if i knew i wouldnt be a turnip in a vegtable patch i would do it. Fuck life basiclly. i asked dr phil by sending a letter no response i guess if i showed up and shot myself live on the show he would get the hint/
     
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