I'm so sorry if I'm in the way of everyone elses' posts.... I usually don't share my problems with others....but I don't know where else to go with this... I don't know what is wrong with me! Why can't I eat anything any more without absolutely freaking out.... Seriously, I can't even have something small like a bit of lettuce without having to go purge it. I haven't kept anything down for a while because of this. I have to be completely empty all the time otherwise I feel like I'm fat and I've failed....which then makes me want to cut up my arm or go hang myself... I know my body needs something which is why I used to limit myself to maybe something like an apple a day but now it has to be absolutely nothing but water. This wouldn't be such a problem if my heart and the rest of my body weren't so messed up and I wasn't in danger of ending up in the hospital again.