I'm getting bad again. Bored, overeating, depressed, tired, feeling pointless, on a downward spiral. Stuck in the house with my family because of the blizzard. Angry. And so so so so so numb. I thought I was doing well for a bit. Bad, violent thoughts. I'm so dumb, it's humiliating. I hate my thoughts- they're like prisms and then shattered. And they go nowhere. I remember thinking, all of the things I could have been. Is there anything to just wake me up- anything that could just snap me out of it and help me find my way? THere are so many problems. I've been fighting so long... why can't this come to an end?