Just got one of the few phone calls no one EVER wants. My best friend from highschool is dead. I can't cry, I can't think, I just can't function.... How do I deal with this!!! I feel as if the right side of my body has been ripped off! Poof! Gone! No More! Why?! She was a good person...always looking at the good in people, giving others second chances.....WHY HER?!?!?! It should have been me....I don't want to live in a world where she doesn't exist!! I JUST CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS!!!!!!