WHY ME? Seriously?? WHY the f*ck did I have a good Christmas? My girlfriend didn't and she deserves it more than me. I deserve NOTHING. I deserve SH*T. I DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING. I f*cking hate this holiday. I wish I could burn the stupid FAKE tree I have, and I wish I could take back all my gifts and I wish I could just f*cking kill Christmas. It's commercialism bullsh*t. It's a time for my family to "haha" over how stupid and LIBERAL I am. (Ohhh what a sin.) It's a time to stock up on junk we'll throw away in half a year. God I hate myself. I don't deserve this girlfriend I have and I certainly don't deserve to f*cking live. God I'm crying like a stupid wuss right now. I'm nothing but a baby. A stupid brainless wimp.