Hey everyone, my name is Melissa and I just need some help understanding my actions. I've been in and out of psyke wards for 6months (my longest stay was 3 months). And looking back on what I did, ods and "attemped suicides" I don't think I was trying to kill myself. I have hurt myself about 7times enought to go to hospital and or psyke wards but I think that I really wanted to die about 3 times. Looking back now when my head is clearer I can only think that I was doing it for attention or other wize I would of done the job right. I hate to think of myself being so selfish because I wanted attention and going to such extremes. Anyone have any ideas or feel like they are in the same boat?