Well i been feeling really really low the past few weeks, and im stressing over my course that i need to do, theres no way in hell im gonna get it done. So i've been upset about the prospect of failing college amounst other things going on right now. So i came on MSN and this guy i like who is 26 pops up, so we start talking and i was honest with him telling him i wasn't feeling too good. So i tried to explain what i felt. He said: "i know what you wanna do" "and you better not" then later on in the convosation i said "don't worry i don't expect you to understand" and i got the reply: "whatever" So obviously he's pissed at me, so i ask him why and he says that hes annoyed that i keep hurting myself and saying im a bad person and i deserve this. He expects me to drop the way i've felt all my life, the way i was made to feel just because he disagrees. He just don't understand it, so i explained about something my brother did to me, which upset me even more. But what really upset me was the fact that he's annoyed at me for the self harming, he of all people should have some idea of what its like because he has an ex who self harmed in a very similar to me, but yet he still gets annoyed. Making me feel ten times worse. Why can't he understand that i can't just change the way i feel like that, if i could don't you think i would of by now? Sorry for the rant, just he really upset me by getting annoyed at me.