I'm almost 15 years old (March 7) and I have a good life, except that it always feels like nobody likes me. From 1-8th grade I didn't talk to too many people and didn't have many friends, and whenever I tried to (or try today) to talk to people I don't know I just get a weird vibe and I go back to just sitting there. It'll be in class and everyone will be talking and I'll just be sitting there staring at the wall. Whenever the teacher will say to get into a group for a project I'll end up working on my own. I've always had this paranoia that I'm mentally retarded / that people think I'm mentally retarded which is my main concern. Every where I go I'll be thinking about how I'm looking and if people are talking poorly about me. I just never feel appreciated by anyone and I never feel that anyone wants to talk to me so I always feel alone. My mom helps me by texting back and forth when I'm feeling bad which helps. I have thoughts of suicide at least 2-3 times a week and it's just been terrible feeling for over 5 years that no one likes me or wants to be my friend. I don't want to make this long so I'll stop it here. This is how I feel and I just wanted to unleash it. Please reply. EDIT: Also I don't know if this is medical or not but it'll take me until 9:00 PM starting at 6 or 7 to get my homework done, not that its hard but I can't concentrate. I'll sat down at a table with almost complete silence and I'll sit there, staring at my homework and my mind will either go blank or I'll start thinking of other things. It's like I can't work for more than 10-20 minutes and it makes me feel like a failure every night.