For the past few years, i struggle through every day! Some days are good, some days are bad and some days are like today, unbearable! I try to copw by thinking that death is quite probably very painful! However today, i couldn't care less about the pain, it will go when i pass! I just think i should take my stash of tablets, death will be a lot better than my life! I have made a total mess of my life, can't put up with it any more!!