You know I have been on my own for 3 days now. And I realized something. Why do I bother? Why do I bother remaining alive. There is nothing left for me. These past 3 days have shown me that. The only difference is that next week I will start my job. So I will have a chunk of the day dedicated to working. But other than that there will be no difference. So why do I bother keeping living? Why am I too scared to kill myself?