I'm a 17 year old boy. I don't come from a poor background, but honestly, I couldn't care less about having money. I just want friends. I never have had any friends I could keep. I'm useless. That's who I am. I keep being told this by people I care about, and trust. In my life, there are only a few select people I feel I can trust, and one of them I sometimes think doesn't even like me. I'm bisexual (another reason I'm so depressed, I'm not "normal" in that sense), and this is the person I really love. And I just feel like he doesn't want me to talk to him, or bug him. I have been in the hospital before for depression, and I found a group of kids there that I got along well with, but that's only because of the camaraderie required by living in such an enclosed place. As soon as we were all discharged, they dropped me. I currently go to a therapeutic school for my depression, but even there I feel that they don't want me. I feel that the staff is tired of me, the kids don't like me, and even if they understand what it feels like to be rejected, the only person they seem to reject is me. I hate the way things are going in my life, I can't repair them at this rate, and the more I try the worse things become. Why do I bother trying anymore... Why should I exist when my existance is solely a burden on all the people I love and care about..?