Really, why do I? Because I can't help it, of course. At any given point in time, I will be attached to someone. Single, not single, doesn't matter. I try to avoid relationships because I get so attached and end up fucked up. But then my mind decides that I should have a guy who I fuck and kiss and cuddle, and have him around my house all the time, but not officially call it a relationship, and things will be better. THEY ARE NOT BETTER. Especially not when he is so blatantly in love with 2 other girls and I'm fucking incredibly hypersensitive when it comes to my ego. I just wish I could be attached to no one and feel no hurt from anything. But then I feel hurt from being alone. Why must I always be in pain? Just wanna cry my friggin' eyes out tbh. Why do we like to hurt so much?