Ok... I am sorry to post this. I need to get it of my plate before I go insane. I gave up cannabis for about 1 week or 2 and I thought I could do it. Instead of sticking to it I went back to it. My mates are moving soon so I really need to quit but I don't know how to. It's like I love it so badly my body doesn't want to stop. I tell myself I don't need it but my body says it does which is obviously stupid because I haven't always done it so what makes me think I need it so much. It's a load of rubbish. I have got 4 weeks in a job for a work boost and I am scared that if they realise I am high they are going to get rid of me. Guess what stupid I know but I still won't stop. It got to the stage where I thought everyone was looking at me and talking about me on a bus and I still won't stop. I never used to be this way. If something was making me ill I would stop. I just won't stop cannabis. I don't use tobacco with it so I can't understand why I am doing this. I have never felt this way. People say I am making it up but I am not. Why would I lie about this? I have no reason to. If this doesn't sound like cannabis then obviously there is something else put in it cause I just won't stop. It's not the fact that everyone around me is doing it. That doesn't bother me. I managed to stop in those 1 to 2 weeks with my mates doing it. It's just my body is telling me that I need it. My mind is telling me I don't. Quite obviously I don't want to do this anymore. I am sick of being pathetic and stupid. My other mates have quit with no problems so why am I doing this to myself. It only makes my depression worse. This is how bad it is. I promised to myself I would give up cause I know my aunt (who died of cancer) would want me to stop but I just can't. I think I just about know why. Cause even though I know deep inside I want to stop some part of me misses it. Omg just listen to me. I have finally lost it. What is going on? I don't know what but something is holding me back. I think I am going crazy. I know you'll probably won't reply. Just some crazy girl who can't even do this one thing right. Like I said got no problem with my mates doing it. Have stopped in front of them before with no pressure so I know it's just me being dumb. I mainly needed to get this out before I found I couldn't sleep. Sorry to be stupid.