im in this class called personal development. One of the things she tells us to do is to think positive all the time and things will work out in your fortune. Well i've been trying this,, and honestly it isnt working at all. Today started as a good, no GREAT day, i woke up and had breakfast and got a great parking spot at school, my favorite parking spot. I even felt good as i walked to my car. But then i wrecked for the first time in my life, and i was completely my fault. Just like everything else, i'll never get any better at driving, i'll never get better at anything. I'm slightly good at most things but not good at any one thing. I dont even know what i like, or what i want to do with my life. I just want to stop feeling, stop going places. Dying young seems like it is the path i was meant to go on, i mean, i'm constantly miserable, i find nothing that makes me happy, and i try almost anything to make me happy but nothing does. I'd be no help to people so why go on? I'm a burden to my parents, and a burden to everyone looking at my horribly shaped, 6ft 2 female body. I cant find a reason anymore, i dont want a reason, i just want to stop feeling everything and escape this hell hole for once.