I have seriously been planning my demise for the last two weeks - getting everything like, wills, money and arrangements for my partner put in place. I have been unwell for the last 12 months and been off work since January 2010. I felt hopeless and desperate. I was making a good recovery , but now realise that I am the only person who cannot reconcile the cause of my illness. , and the fact that someone is getting away with it! ( I do not wish to go into detail!) However, now I have made the decision and the arrangements I feel absolutely great, and I feel at peace and for the first time in a year I know what I want to do. My partner has become aware of my plans and she says that my mindset is wrong and not rational. If it is wrong - why does it feel so right?