So, First thread here and I dont really know where to begin, probably because I dont know where it did.....
Im sad, upset and lonely, no friends, family living hundreds of miles away who dont even care anyway, boyfriend, who works in a war zone thousands of miles away.....a life that is pathetic and pointless to its very core.
Earlier this year I was on the brink of ending it all, I ask myself over and over what stopped me, and the answer was my husband, but he isnt here anymore, so whats stopping me now, and the answer is I dont know anymore.
YOu always find that people *say* they care, I have a few people at work like that, but believing what they say is another matter completely.
I have no one.....Nobody and that is the sad fact plain and simple.
I have a week off of work next week, and I think with my mood being so bad, my boss at work is worried about what I might do. She is trying to make me go down and spend time with my family, but it was my Birthday 3 weeks ago and I didnt even hear from them, I dont talk to them and they dont talk to me either.
I feel like im stubling around my soory excuse for an existance blind, trying to find a path in life, one where I can be happy and can make myself happy and its not working.
I went home from work today, My mood was bad and I havent been able to stop crying at my desk so my boss told me I could go home. Things have got to be pretty bad when you get sent home from work because of how down you are.
I wish I could just go to sleep, pull the covers over my head and not have to wake up....
Im sad, upset and lonely, no friends, family living hundreds of miles away who dont even care anyway, boyfriend, who works in a war zone thousands of miles away.....a life that is pathetic and pointless to its very core.
Earlier this year I was on the brink of ending it all, I ask myself over and over what stopped me, and the answer was my husband, but he isnt here anymore, so whats stopping me now, and the answer is I dont know anymore.
YOu always find that people *say* they care, I have a few people at work like that, but believing what they say is another matter completely.
I have no one.....Nobody and that is the sad fact plain and simple.
I have a week off of work next week, and I think with my mood being so bad, my boss at work is worried about what I might do. She is trying to make me go down and spend time with my family, but it was my Birthday 3 weeks ago and I didnt even hear from them, I dont talk to them and they dont talk to me either.
I feel like im stubling around my soory excuse for an existance blind, trying to find a path in life, one where I can be happy and can make myself happy and its not working.
I went home from work today, My mood was bad and I havent been able to stop crying at my desk so my boss told me I could go home. Things have got to be pretty bad when you get sent home from work because of how down you are.
I wish I could just go to sleep, pull the covers over my head and not have to wake up....