well i think the title tells it all. i have not cut myself for 14 years but over the weekend i lost it and did it again. it felt so good feeling and seeing the blood run out it felt like all the pain and shit inside was just running out off me. right now i want and need to do it again. i keep stoping myself but i know it will happen the feeling of wanting it will get just to great. what the hell is wrong with me to want and do this again. why can i not just deal with things with out the need to want to harm myself even want to kill myself.